Yehaha...
Yup yup.. just back from my laziness butt. hmm.
Have been busy with updating my current little wordpress website.
The weather here? hmm.. raining keeps on coming pouring down heavily. and sometimes the weather is so damn HOT!!.. Grrr...
I'm missing lots of things nowadays. my restless day. my art class. my dinner. yup yup so many things comes up.
I haven't started with my illustration thingy for noma concours. I keep on saying in progress but actually haven't start yet! But i did a little sketch for it. yeheee.. only one page. haha. *dies*
I went for a relax rest day at Empire just for one day. Hmm.. thats enough for me. hehhee...
And also... i need to get exercise.. maintain my health, my weight, my slim body (yeah right)..my eyes? always hv dark circles. I donno how to get rid of it. They said its maybe due to genetic. *roll eyes* i think ill start to go for aerobic. yeah.. one two three... aerobic. Just to keep me on moving!!
I just bought my EPO with Fish Omega Oil last week. Hoping my period will come. Pop!!
I'm hungry too. its 11:38AM. Lapar laaa!!
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Thursday, March 27, 2008
.messy.
my room is definitely messy. I don't know what i did with my room. It just upside down. I don't know where put all the little things, my art, my paint brushes. Urghh.
My mood swing is back.
My sensitive feelings reached to a maximum. (sorry for the bad English) haha. oh period you better come out.
hmm.. i think i'll join the 16th Noma Concours for Picture Book Illustration. ;) so now am thinking what to to illustrate ...
My mood swing is back.
My sensitive feelings reached to a maximum. (sorry for the bad English) haha. oh period you better come out.
hmm.. i think i'll join the 16th Noma Concours for Picture Book Illustration. ;) so now am thinking what to to illustrate ...
Saturday, March 1, 2008
dreaming
Hey!
:)
A good day today. Hehe. Just woke up from sleep.
I’ve completed my acrylic painting. tick. I bought two earrings from the rainforest gallery. Yes, its not only they provide art lesson they also sale jewelleries. Hehe. Nice. I’ve been eyeing for the earrings since its cheap so I bought it! Yay! Nope I didn’t buy brushes. Haha. I’ll buy it next time.
What shall I do today? Hmm… oh I’ll play around Keri Smith little games that I got from her website. You should visit her. She is an excellent person and I like her website. So simple and clean. :) and I’m thinking I want to paint. I mean last paint before I hand in my portfolio to be assessed. On the 15th march, they/he’ll be checking my portfolios for Art and Design course. Wuhew. I hope I’ll get it and impress them/him. No.. not really a high expectation. I’m afraid I’ll be heart broken. :( haha. Oh.. lets pray hope that I’ll get it.
Last night,I’ve been dreaming. I dreamt that I want to open a small school for childrens. I mean art class where they can get messy, play around with the colors, read books. Nursery? Hmm.. is it nursery? Haha I don’t think so. Because I’ll invite adults too to come and learn how to paint. This would be fun. Everyone get messy. Hehehe. Yeah yeah.. its just a dream. Haha.
I’m still sleepy. I better take a shower before I go back to my bed and sleep. Haha.
Tata~
:)
A good day today. Hehe. Just woke up from sleep.
I’ve completed my acrylic painting. tick. I bought two earrings from the rainforest gallery. Yes, its not only they provide art lesson they also sale jewelleries. Hehe. Nice. I’ve been eyeing for the earrings since its cheap so I bought it! Yay! Nope I didn’t buy brushes. Haha. I’ll buy it next time.
What shall I do today? Hmm… oh I’ll play around Keri Smith little games that I got from her website. You should visit her. She is an excellent person and I like her website. So simple and clean. :) and I’m thinking I want to paint. I mean last paint before I hand in my portfolio to be assessed. On the 15th march, they/he’ll be checking my portfolios for Art and Design course. Wuhew. I hope I’ll get it and impress them/him. No.. not really a high expectation. I’m afraid I’ll be heart broken. :( haha. Oh.. lets pray hope that I’ll get it.
Last night,I’ve been dreaming. I dreamt that I want to open a small school for childrens. I mean art class where they can get messy, play around with the colors, read books. Nursery? Hmm.. is it nursery? Haha I don’t think so. Because I’ll invite adults too to come and learn how to paint. This would be fun. Everyone get messy. Hehehe. Yeah yeah.. its just a dream. Haha.
I’m still sleepy. I better take a shower before I go back to my bed and sleep. Haha.
Tata~
Friday, February 29, 2008
sleepy
*yawn*
I'm sleepy and tired. Just got back from swimming. Feelin better now.
good nyt you. have a good rest. :)
I'm sleepy and tired. Just got back from swimming. Feelin better now.
good nyt you. have a good rest. :)
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
period
i cried.
maybe because of my period thingy.
but for sure i think its not because of my period. i just get so sensitive about just a small matter and i make it big. duh.
what i was crying about? i don't think i want to spill it out to you all. You will think that i'm so childish that i shouldn't think like that.
all of my grown up years, tears accompany me. i think ahead of me what will happen to me and my family. I'm not coming from a rich family. Money is always the issues to me. (now i spill it.. haha). we always don't have enough money. and i'm always worried, counting my money whther its enough until end of month (its that a sickness?) and i always have few dollars in my account. i got scared when i only have few dollars as i'm thinking where can i get more money i can't ask money from my parents as my parents are also havin' difficulty. i have 3 little sisters and one brother. they are still young. (yes i'm the eldest). i always feel guilty when i don't have enough money to spend money for them. Though, i don't have enough of it, i'll ask them if there anything they want. or else i'll bring them to watch movie and dinner. thats all i can only do for them.
i do have to pay bills - telephone, electric and water, my car and laptop loans, visa and mastercard (i will cut my visa and mastercard once i finished paying 'em). Give money to my mommy and sisters. and now i need to save money around $300 -- thats for future needed. i will be goin to uni soon (if i'm accepted) and i need to find extra income. yeah back to school. i want to go to uni takin' my degree. extra hardwork. its ok. i'll have a better pay once i'm out of uni. i'm so worried. *sigh*
salary will be out tomorrow and i count my money again (haha). when i keep on counting.. i'll say ohhh i can't spend any money for myself this month and next few months. so boring. :(. just now, i chat with him and i told him all those things that worried me. yah you know once i get admitted to uni i'll only be able to pay car loan. how about the rest? so i am thinking to get a job. yeah a job.. maybe a tuition teacher or work at fast food restaurant. maybe. or most probably i'll have two jobs at one time. that time i will be exhausted and hopefully i'll have time to spend time with him.
Hope things will be fine.
maybe because of my period thingy.
but for sure i think its not because of my period. i just get so sensitive about just a small matter and i make it big. duh.
what i was crying about? i don't think i want to spill it out to you all. You will think that i'm so childish that i shouldn't think like that.
all of my grown up years, tears accompany me. i think ahead of me what will happen to me and my family. I'm not coming from a rich family. Money is always the issues to me. (now i spill it.. haha). we always don't have enough money. and i'm always worried, counting my money whther its enough until end of month (its that a sickness?) and i always have few dollars in my account. i got scared when i only have few dollars as i'm thinking where can i get more money i can't ask money from my parents as my parents are also havin' difficulty. i have 3 little sisters and one brother. they are still young. (yes i'm the eldest). i always feel guilty when i don't have enough money to spend money for them. Though, i don't have enough of it, i'll ask them if there anything they want. or else i'll bring them to watch movie and dinner. thats all i can only do for them.
i do have to pay bills - telephone, electric and water, my car and laptop loans, visa and mastercard (i will cut my visa and mastercard once i finished paying 'em). Give money to my mommy and sisters. and now i need to save money around $300 -- thats for future needed. i will be goin to uni soon (if i'm accepted) and i need to find extra income. yeah back to school. i want to go to uni takin' my degree. extra hardwork. its ok. i'll have a better pay once i'm out of uni. i'm so worried. *sigh*
salary will be out tomorrow and i count my money again (haha). when i keep on counting.. i'll say ohhh i can't spend any money for myself this month and next few months. so boring. :(. just now, i chat with him and i told him all those things that worried me. yah you know once i get admitted to uni i'll only be able to pay car loan. how about the rest? so i am thinking to get a job. yeah a job.. maybe a tuition teacher or work at fast food restaurant. maybe. or most probably i'll have two jobs at one time. that time i will be exhausted and hopefully i'll have time to spend time with him.
Hope things will be fine.
Monday, February 25, 2008
ambition
oh hi. :) I'm back. Today is Monday. I'm supposed to go to work today but i feel like i don't want to go to work and look at the pc again. sucks. so i told my engineer i'm ill and i can't come to work. so let him be busy. but i guess he will be not in the office. yeah right.. just relaxing. i think tomorrow i'll be busy since there were lots of pending complaints, penidng replies email. hmm. *sigh*
today i spent my time at home. send msg to boyfriend. well he do knows that i'm not actually that ill. haha. and i spent my time practicing my modern chinese painting again. *phew* no class last week. cancelled. umm.. two more days for salary to comes out and start savings. i need it when really need it. (what was i sayin? :s) i hope i will be accpeted to a university. I'm kinda bored working with my company. I'm bored with my job. or probably i'm not ready to move on with a bigger job or maybe i'm just scared to be given a job that i don't really want to do. what do i want?
ok lets begin. at the age of 21/22 (as i remember), i don't really know what was my ambition. i was not thinking straight. before in secondary school i want to be a doctor. (ahah.. every kid want to be a doc). but then .. as i grew up.. everythings change. i'm blank. so after i graduate, i wanted to do different thing. something i can do naturally. naturally comes out of me. i started to surf in the internet and i found AHAH! oohh.. a blog skin. wooah.. make your won blog skin using what software?! and i kept on searching and learning. And now i know PHOTOSHOP is a very interesting to explore and learn. I learn alot (but not really.. just the basic things). i began by making a blog skin for a free website like bloggers.com ( and i signed up for blogger too. haha) . I searched dozen of tutorials. interetsing tutorial for a beginner like me. then i upgraded myself by learning HTML (currently learning how to use CSS). and move on to editing photos, photo manipulation, makin' my own wallpaper. hehe. interesting? till now, i still do it. i think i become one of the genius geeks in the world. haha. just kiddin'. ;) .
back to my ambition. now. i want to be an illustrator for children book. at least one. why? i don't know. the feeling keep on coming and so strong sayin' that show to the world that you can do that too though you are not an art student, not an artist (but pretend to be an artist), not graduated from art school .. show your skill girl! yaeah! i like to draw, doodling on any papers (haha.. i do this in the office too), scan my work and colored it n the photoshop ( more easy for me) and .. i take art lesson! wow. i pat myself. keep doin' it girl. you don't know what happen next. a miracle maybe. :) haha. i know. i'm a dreamer.
i wish my dreams come true...
today i spent my time at home. send msg to boyfriend. well he do knows that i'm not actually that ill. haha. and i spent my time practicing my modern chinese painting again. *phew* no class last week. cancelled. umm.. two more days for salary to comes out and start savings. i need it when really need it. (what was i sayin? :s) i hope i will be accpeted to a university. I'm kinda bored working with my company. I'm bored with my job. or probably i'm not ready to move on with a bigger job or maybe i'm just scared to be given a job that i don't really want to do. what do i want?
ok lets begin. at the age of 21/22 (as i remember), i don't really know what was my ambition. i was not thinking straight. before in secondary school i want to be a doctor. (ahah.. every kid want to be a doc). but then .. as i grew up.. everythings change. i'm blank. so after i graduate, i wanted to do different thing. something i can do naturally. naturally comes out of me. i started to surf in the internet and i found AHAH! oohh.. a blog skin. wooah.. make your won blog skin using what software?! and i kept on searching and learning. And now i know PHOTOSHOP is a very interesting to explore and learn. I learn alot (but not really.. just the basic things). i began by making a blog skin for a free website like bloggers.com ( and i signed up for blogger too. haha) . I searched dozen of tutorials. interetsing tutorial for a beginner like me. then i upgraded myself by learning HTML (currently learning how to use CSS). and move on to editing photos, photo manipulation, makin' my own wallpaper. hehe. interesting? till now, i still do it. i think i become one of the genius geeks in the world. haha. just kiddin'. ;) .
back to my ambition. now. i want to be an illustrator for children book. at least one. why? i don't know. the feeling keep on coming and so strong sayin' that show to the world that you can do that too though you are not an art student, not an artist (but pretend to be an artist), not graduated from art school .. show your skill girl! yaeah! i like to draw, doodling on any papers (haha.. i do this in the office too), scan my work and colored it n the photoshop ( more easy for me) and .. i take art lesson! wow. i pat myself. keep doin' it girl. you don't know what happen next. a miracle maybe. :) haha. i know. i'm a dreamer.
i wish my dreams come true...
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
hmm.. what a day. Lots of things happening in the office. the testing with some other operators can be so troublesome but when you get to finish the work, you are excited to get home! when i reach home, i'll have a rest on a sofa and watch tv. my favourite drama show. sometimes i don't take a bath at all. haha as you know its been raining nowadays and the water? i don't think so you will want to. hahaha i bet it will be freezing~ brrrr~
my cough is still ... you know. i think i have a dry coughin' at the moment (oops sorry for the bad english). I can'tstop cough and at the same time, my stomach is grumbling. My day is so busy that i got angry easily. haha even it is just a joke. i can't take it. maybe it because i'm goin' to have my period? maybe. i hope so. I don't want to have that very bad nightmares i have that before this i did not have my period for few mths sometimes happens about a year. Scary huh? but now since i eat my vitamin e with fish oil tablet (brand: blackmores). It working well. I keep on havin' my period every mth now. hehe. i'm glad.
i want to get gocco print for myself. I found it out when one of the blogger living in Japan with her husbdan( for your info she married to a Japanese man. Cool isn't it?) so she introduce to all other bloggers to have a try. She said we will love it. I love that kind of thing so that i can do something at home other than doodling in moleskine book and joining an art class. hehe. gocco print we can print on fabric too. It will be fun right? :D i need to do something else. And yeah.. i've been so eager to learn how to sew when i saw Lans Jansdotter handbook where we can make our own handmade bag. I check out at one of the tailor shop.. that kind of cloth/fabric cost around $18+ *dies* i don't think i can afford it. i can afford to buy a cheap fabric maybe around $4?! hmm i'm sure i can get extra income.
k.. off to home! =) tata.
my cough is still ... you know. i think i have a dry coughin' at the moment (oops sorry for the bad english). I can'tstop cough and at the same time, my stomach is grumbling. My day is so busy that i got angry easily. haha even it is just a joke. i can't take it. maybe it because i'm goin' to have my period? maybe. i hope so. I don't want to have that very bad nightmares i have that before this i did not have my period for few mths sometimes happens about a year. Scary huh? but now since i eat my vitamin e with fish oil tablet (brand: blackmores). It working well. I keep on havin' my period every mth now. hehe. i'm glad.
i want to get gocco print for myself. I found it out when one of the blogger living in Japan with her husbdan( for your info she married to a Japanese man. Cool isn't it?) so she introduce to all other bloggers to have a try. She said we will love it. I love that kind of thing so that i can do something at home other than doodling in moleskine book and joining an art class. hehe. gocco print we can print on fabric too. It will be fun right? :D i need to do something else. And yeah.. i've been so eager to learn how to sew when i saw Lans Jansdotter handbook where we can make our own handmade bag. I check out at one of the tailor shop.. that kind of cloth/fabric cost around $18+ *dies* i don't think i can afford it. i can afford to buy a cheap fabric maybe around $4?! hmm i'm sure i can get extra income.
k.. off to home! =) tata.
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